Never Take Advice From A Gargoyle

The dark forces driving mania also drive depression, indeed, mania and depression are like twins separated at birth and raised by different families. The more you understand them the more you are struck by similarities, not differences. I have written much more about mania than I have about depression, but depression has consumed a far […]

Existentialists Explore Extreme Tedium

The word “extreme” is overused today; like “awesome” it has been drained of its raw glory by thoughtless abuse. Being manic-depressive – or “bipolar” – I have spent most of my life in extremes, natural habitat of the mad. I chased kicks obsessively, certain I was having fun. But fun, I discovered late in life, […]

Study Links Bipolar Disorder, Genius, Creativity & Idiocy

If you’ve ever met an actual genius – or worse – if you are one – you know that: those in need of garden-variety stupidity are advised to seek out a moron – but – those in search of world-class idiocy should go the extra mile and track down a genius. “Those who believe that […]

The Myth of Self-Medication

As a card-carrying alcoholic bipolar bear there’s little anyone can teach me about denial. When confronted with a choice between the easy way and my way – well – do I even need to tell you which I chose? Frequently I was so defiant that – if you told me to turn left, I turned […]

Straight Jackets Made Here

How is it that a culture able to conceive and create over 100 different types of toothpaste has managed to develop just one vision of the afterlife? Heaven: puffy clouds, harps, angels floating lazily. Hell: flames, smell of sulfur, pitchfork-wielding demons. Humanity really enjoys patting its collective back on the subject of inventiveness and creativity, but here, in […]

Stigma Is A Two-Way Street

As a long-term professional writer, I am very careful, and selective, about what I do and do not say. Like a spy, I know how to offer only the appearance of self-disclosure. As a mentally ill person moving incognito among “sane” citizens, one becomes a skillful actor. However, I am temporarily discarding this policy. Shamelessness […]

Cry Me A River

Manic Depression (Bipolar Disorder) stormed into my life like Godzilla and left like Santa Claus. Among its many gifts was the ability to cry. Until that time I had fled this basic human function with resolute determination and was unacquainted with its primal power and beauty. My parents came from cultures where the open display […]

Dancing With Your Bipolar Bear

One of life’s great lessons is to accept, master, and ultimately enjoy that which cannot be avoided. Chances are you already know that bipolar disorder is incurable, however, there is a vast spectrum of experience in between being a victim of the illness and living a full, productive, and happy life that includes it. Over […]